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Feeling Worthless

I have lost all value of myself

Luke 15:15-16

15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
lose :become unable to find (something or someone).
I guess i need to really understand a lack of value for oneself again to be able to pour my soul out right. At this moment if you ask me how i feel inside id say i feel nothing.To numb to hurt, I wake up every morning wishing i didnt only to realize i did. Just to put on another fake smile and think about how my life has become pure garbage. How much ive grown to hate myself because of the stuff ive allowed in
my life. I remember feeling so worthy of so much feeling good inside and loved and cared..those days are hard to find now.

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