Life After Prostitution

I left my sexual lifestyle John 8:11 11 “No one, sir,” she said. “Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.” Last week someone questioned me because i told them once about my past lifestyle. They thought that just cuz i was once that way in the past that im that way now. Those feelings i have on the things i use to do are not the same i feel guilt and shame instead of nothingness when i commit a sin. I didnt love God then. I was empty wanting love from a man. I left my lifestyle of sleeping around prostituting along time ago. I want something real. I want love. Who really wants to wonder around sinning all the time. Having sex with tons of men. Feeling dirty and low. I dont thats not who i am. Don't trust her around your man! Proverbs 7:10-13;21Then out came a woman to meet him, dressed like a prostitute and with crafty intent. 11 (She is unruly and defiant, her feet never stay at home; 12 now in the street, now in the

Hoe to a Wife Matthew 1:5 Salmon the father of Boaz, whose mother was Rahab, Boaz the father of Obed, whose mother was Ruth, Obed the father of Jesse, I value being a wife! Wife back in the day for me wasnt even an option i was a loose woman. So for me going backwards would be crazy. Its like downgrading back to where i use to be. For me being a wife is a high honor. I dont always have the best wifely days and marriage can be hard. But no I would never for a second want to trade in my wife card back for my hoe card..

The craziest thing ive done for money Prostitute : offer (someone, typically a woman) for sexual activity in exchange for payment. Joshua 2:1-2 Then Joshua son of Nun secretly sent two spies from Shittim. “Go, look over the land,” he said, “especially Jericho.” So they went and entered the house of a prostitute named Rahab and stayed there. The craziest thing Ive ever done for money is prostitute. Sell my body so that I can survive living on the streets. I use to run away from home. The easiest way to find shelter get a meal was either trade my body in for a place to stay or for cash. One way or another i was going to make it out there. So i chose the only thing i knew would work my body. Thats what I had to offer. Am i proud of what i did no. Do i regret it yes. Will i ever do it again not even if i ran out of options on getting back on my feet. Prostitution is not the answer. My thoughts about men after prostitution Hosea 3:3 3 Then I told her, “You are to live with me

Prostitution  Proverbs 7:10 Then out came a woman to meet him,      dressed like a prostitute and with crafty intent. pros·ti·tute ˈprästəˌt(y)o͞ot/ noun 1 . a person, in particular a woman, who engages in sexual activity for payment. Honestly prostitution is easy money. Men love sex!( not male bashing just what ive seen in my life experiences walking down this road of prostitution) Alot are not willing to reject a woman whose ready to spread their legs. Some will but even the people ud least expect are willing to pay for play. Sex sells!Alot of men have fetishes, pay to pleasure, pay to be pleasured. Its the reality that we live in . Honestly its easy money. Fast cash.  Right now what im making working 80 hours a week i could make in a few hours. Because prostitution is easy money and men love sex. Desperate times Call for Measures desperate times call for desperate measures Extreme   and   undesirable   circumstances  or  sit

Seducing Proverbs 7:21-23 21 With persuasive words she led him astray; she seduced him with her smooth talk. 22 All at once he followed her like an ox going to the slaughter, like a deer[a] stepping into a noose[b] 23 till an arrow pierces his liver, like a bird darting into a snare, little knowing it will cost him his life. seduce entice (someone) into sexual activity. I know all about seduction being a woman who was very sexually promiscuous. I knew how to lure a man in with my words, by touch, by manipulation how ever i was going to get what i want. I was good at what i did. But its not that hard most men love sex and fall for it. Married, single, even pastors, men woman. Sex is just one of those things in which is very tempting. And with the right words, the right outfit, the right hair sytle, the right something seduction can be easy

I have lost all value of myself Luke 15:15-16 15  So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs.   16  He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything. lose :become unable to find (something or someone). I guess i need to really understand a lack of value for oneself again to be able to pour my soul out right. At this moment if you ask me how i feel inside id say i feel nothing.To numb to hurt, I wake up every morning wishing i didnt only to realize i did. Just to put on another fake smile and think about how my life has become pure garbage. How much ive grown to hate myself because of the stuff ive allowed in my life. I remember feeling so worthy of so much feeling good inside and loved and cared..those days are hard to find now.