Life After Prostitution

Trust!  firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. Joshua 2:18 Behold, when we come into the land, thou shalt bind this line of scarlet thread in the window which thou didst let us down by: and thou shalt bring thy father, and thy mother, and thy brethren, and all thy father's household, home unto thee. So we been talking about receiving love and how  to receive love you must be vulnerable not only that but you must learn to trust. Rahab wanted to receive Gods love. Yet when the men left her they could have not returned they could have not came back for her but she had to learn to trust that they were going to come back for her. Alot of men probably came back for her day in and day out but for one thing Sex! Yet she had to trust that they would come back to rescue her! Rescue her out of her lifestyle, from behind her wall she lived behind! It takes a lot to trust and faith to believe that love will do the right things by you. I remember the

A Guarded Heart  guarded cautious and having possible reservations. Joshua 2:1 And Joshua the son of Nun sent out of Shittim two men to spy secretly, saying, Go view the land, even Jericho. And they went, and came into an harlot's house, named Rahab, and lodged there. My prostitution never was because It was fun. Yet It was easier to just have sex with men then to actually let someone love me.  Faithfulness was far from my middle name I cheated on men like it was my job. Well it actually was like a job. But lets be serious I am still human and deep underneath my tough girl act I use to put on I just wanted someone to love me but I was guarded! I've been guarded for so long. So being so guarded it was just easier to sleep with men then to actually let someone in. Easier to allow them to walk in and out of my life alot of the times I caught feelings I always had a main boyfriend. Yet then i'd cheat. Then when I was 16 the prostitution started thats how I became the ha

                  You can't try to love  What you hate! hate hāt/ verb 1 . feel intense or passionate dislike for (someone). 1 John 3:15  Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him I wish this was easy to even talk about! I mean a year ago God told me you never know unless you try. I mean I hated men. So call me a murderer for hating my brother. I have to repent. He said Jaz someone loves you and i laughed inside only you love me Lord. To me men just want sex. I don't care if you were a good man to me it didnt matter! I didnt care if you never tried to sleep with me. I still saw thru your facade. I know HATE is such a strong word yet knowing that look where you are just a piece of meat. Oh i know it well. Being a teen prostitute oh you know those guys, that stare, those thoughts they think. That it is just lust. Then when they use you up they throw you away like you