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Celibacy after Prostitution

Why i have chose to be celibate
Hebrews 13:4
4 Marriage is honourable in all, and the bed undefiled: but whoremongers and adulterers God will judge.
cel·i·bate
abstaining from marriage and sexual relations
Im not a virgin and i havent always gotten it right even after becoming a christian. I have always struggled with sexual sin. My blogs called life after prostitution. So you cant be that surprised At some point in my life i found myself in a predicament where i didnt get my monthly friend. And so i approached the person letting them know. And i dont want to be a single mom. So we sat down and talked about it they said
they'd pay child support but didn't want anything to do with me. But they really were pushing for an abortion. At that point in my life my life changed because i didn't want to be a single mom or have an abortion but because i choose to have sex this was the predicament i found myself in. If I didn't have sex i would have never had to have to make this choice if i found out if i was pregnant or not. Luckily i wasn't pregnant. But It pushed me into making a better choice for myself which is to not have sex with men and be celibate




Self Control

self-con·trol
  1.  ability to control oneself, in particular one's emotions and desires or the expression of them in one's behavior, especially in difficult situations.

1 Corinthians 10:13 

13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

Many times i stayed away from situations that would lead me from being tempted to sleep with other men. Not inviting men over I wanted to make no room for sexual sin to enter into my life. In college if guys came to my dorm the door was left open, When i got older if a guy did come over they would sit on one couch and i another and netflix and chill had its true purpose and once we were done watching the movie he went home... Chilling produces children and i wasnt for it.One time a male friend of mine asked to sleep over he got in my bed i laid on the couch he thought i was going to sleep with him.. and got mad that i slept on the couch. he got up and went to walk out. and i closed the door behind him sorry i was keeping my celibacy. Celibacy is not hard if you learn to have self control and close doors that are trying to open before they open the door leading to sex.


Recovering Sex Addict
Galatians 5:19
19 The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery;
recover
return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength.
Ill be an honest Christian! I loved Sex! I had sex with tons of people before i found Jesus. I had a problem. Some people i didnt know their name, some people i did, some people i didnt even want to have sex with but because i didnt know how to say no without fear of people walking away. Sometimes i just liked the attention because you have to focus on my body during sex it was an insecurity(yes i have those insecurities). Sometimes it was a void filler being lonely or sad or not feeling wanted. It was the way to feel connected and wanted. But honestly I had learn that when having sex it should be between you and your spouse and there should be love and passion and not just because your lonely or want attention or feel disconnected or just need your sexual fix

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