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Search My Heart Lord!

Joshua 6:20-21 So the people shouted when the priests blew with the trumpets: and it came to pass, when the people heard the sound of the trumpet, and the people shouted with a great shout, that the wall fell down flat, so that the people went up into the city, every man straight before him, and they took the city.
21 And they utterly destroyed all that was in the city, both man and woman, young and old, and ox, and sheep, and ass, with the edge of the sword.

Jericho a strong hold was defeated! Victory was the the children of Israel. They were now able to take over the promise land and create change! Even though the promise land had stuff in there their they were to destroy everything. You can't move forward if you still have somethings messed up in you life they could hinder you from future victories! Like in Chapter 7 when Joshua went to go up against Ai and they lost because someone took somethings from Jericho and they lost the battle! GOD SAID GET RIDE OF IT!ALL OF IT!


Don't go into where it is that God is taking you with things in your heart that are not suppose to be there! The children of Israel once crossing over to new places in there life where told once they got into Jericho to destroy everything.(Joshua 6) That meant everything! Sometimes we have things in our lives in which we don't see are still issue's so we want to make sure THAT WE ASK GOD BECAUSE HE CAN SEE THINGS IN OUR LIVES THAT ARE STILL BROKEN! I dont know about you but I want to go into my promise land without anything hindering me, without any disbelief, without the brokeness of the past but fresh and new! SEARCH MY HEART LORD WHATEVER IS NOT OF YOU REMOVE IT! 



Open Heart Surgery

Psalm 51:10

 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.


I've always in my life wanted to be able to LOVE! TO BE LOVED, TO EXPERIENCE SOMEONE LOVING ME BACK AND ME LOVING THEM AND BEING HAPPY IN LOVE! My Jericho in life had always been being afraid of letting someone in to really love me! Yet my walls are down because I learned I can be loved! That I am not just my body but I am WORTHY OF LOVE and WORTHY TO LOVE SOMEONE ELSE! MY HEART IS OPEN! I want God to fix all that is broken in me still so that my heart can function regular. So it can beat normally again, so its not clogged with any junk in it. So that my heart can be free to love!


It's been a long time coming but I know a change going to come!

Change is going to come because I am going to create the change that I want to see! Change doesnt come but not living in actions! Faith without works is dead!

Hebrews 11:31 By faith the harlot Rahab perished not with them that believed not, when she had received the spies with peace.


See Rahab created change. She believed God and acted out in faith and by her faith it saved her and her family giving them a new life! A new chance to start over! A new chance to create change! Things are different now! She survived her past and overcame she was free from behind those walls she lived behind for years! Now it was time to get out and be free!


Circumcision of the Heart


Deuteronomy 30:6

 And the Lord thy God will circumcise thine heart, and the heart of thy seed, to love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live.

It feels like layers have been cut off my heart like I can live again! Like I can love again. Like I am free, to have another chance at life and love! Once so broken and shattered with walls up! Like Rahab stuck behind the walls of Jericho no one went in and no one came out because of past intruders (Joshua 6) Yet God came right in a cleaned me out set me free, patched me up, and is showing me how to love so that I can move forward in life! Ruth and Naomi knew this they lost alot in life but when God brought them in the land and Boaz took notice! Naomi got a change of heart! She went from having life to no life! Ruth found love, went from being barren to conceiving! They were able to live again!




A Tender Heart


ten·der·heart·ed

: easily moved to love, pity, or sorrow : compassionate,
No more room for bitterness, resentment, anger, no more room FOR THE HARD HEARTED HARLOT. SHE DOESN'T LIVE HERE ANYMORE! YOU MAY FIND HER DOWN THE ROAD ON THE STREET CORNER, SHE MAY BE SOMEONE FAMILY MEMBER, A 15 YEAR OLD GIRL, SOMEONES SISTER, SOMEONES MOTHER, SOMEONES WIFE, SOMEONES BEST FRIEND! Have you stopped by the corner not just to pick her up for a few moments of pleasure but stopped just to let her know she is better than that.  Have you chose to make her heart soft instead of hard hearted. SHOW COMPASSION ON HER! SHE IS LOVABLE, SHE IS SEARCHING FOR LOVE, SHE WANTS TO BE HELD,  SHE WANTS TO BE LOVED, HAVE YOU TOLD HER ABOUT JESUS. HAVE YOU DONE ANYTHING TO HELP HEAL HER HARD HEARTED HEART! 

I ONCE HATED MEN COUNTED THEM ALL THE SAME CAN I SAY THAT I DO NOW! NO BECAUSE IVE MEET SOME GREAT MEN IN MY LIFE.ONES THAT DIDN'T JUST WANT ME FOR MY BODY BUT THEY LOVED ME FOR ME. THEY CARED ABOUT ME FOR ME. THEY SHOWED ME I AM LOVED, I AM MORE THAN MY BODY, I AM LOVABLE, BUT MOST OF ALL TREATED ME LIKE A PERSON AND NOT JUST A HARLOT!


OVERCOMER!

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