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My Wife the Ex Harlot!

I want to be an excellent wife! 

excellent

extremely good; outstanding.

Proverbs 12:4
An excellent wife is the crown of her husband,
But she who causes shame is like rottenness in his bones.

I want to be an excellent wife. I spent two years working on my trauma, fear of being a mom,fear of being in love, not wanting to be at home with my family. Just so i can oneday have my own family. I want to be an excellent wife. A wife where a man can't help but say YEAH THATS MY WIFE!! She cook, she cleans, she holds me down, shes a good mom, she saves me money with her couponing lol, she's silly, she loves me and my kids, shes an amazing woman! I pride myself on that. I don't just want to be your average wife. I want to be EXCELLENT!


My wife the ex Harlot! 

Hosea 3:1-3
Then the Lord said to me, “Go again, love a woman who is loved by a lover[a] and is committing adultery, just like the love of the Lord for the children of Israel, who look to other gods and love the raisin cakes of the pagans.” So I bought her for myself for fifteen shekels of silver, and one and one-half homers of barley. 3 And I said to her, “You shall stay with me many days; you shall not play the harlot, nor shall you have a man—so, too, will I be toward you.”

Here is my down fall I am an ex prostitute. This can be hard yes thats my wife the ex prostitute. Gomer was far from an excellent wife she was a prostitute. Man don't I understand. She wasn't anyone that anyone would want to claim.. man don't i understand. More of an embarrassment than someone who anyone would want to be in a relationship with. Yet still Hosea wifed her up! Yess that is my wife right there.. Why because he loved her! Reguardless of what everyone thought of her, reguardless of how everyone treated her. That was his wifey and he loved him some her! Ex-Harlot and all! That right there is my wife! Oneday I hope my husband will understand my past and what ive been through and still love me just as Hosea loved his harlot wife!! She had to make some changes like being for only him and no other man but.Yes that right there is my ex prostitute wife!!!Despite my pass i hope my husband will still be proud enough to claim me as his wife!

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