I left my sexual lifestyle
John 8:11
11 “No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”
Last week someone questioned me because i told them once about my past lifestyle. They thought that just cuz i was once that way in the past that im that way now. Those feelings i have on the things i use to do are not the same i feel guilt and shame instead of nothingness when i commit a sin. I didnt love God then. I was empty wanting love from a man. I left my lifestyle of sleeping around prostituting along time ago. I want something real. I want love. Who really wants to wonder around sinning all the time. Having sex with tons of men. Feeling dirty and low. I dont thats not who i am.
Fighting your flesh
1 Corinthians 6:18
18 Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.
Its hard im not going to lie. But its mind over matter. Its like fasting i did the Daniel fast once no meat cheese butter sugar. Just fruits and veggies and man you can smell meat you crave it but you do what you have to do. Just like on a diet. Just Know that what your doing is well worth it. God knows what hes talking about . so fight your flesh stay focus and flee from sex.
Tempted to have sex?
1 Corinthians 7:2
But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband
temptation
a desire to do something, especially something wrong or unwise.
Temptation can be hard not to give in. It seems like when your trying control yourself from something that what your trying to give up is presented in front of you. Lately ive been giving up meat and everytime i look around someones giving me meat. Its like i know i can't have it but there it is tempting me to want it. Its like when your giving up sex it seems the girl or guy is coming at you trying to be with you. So you may fall or stumble
I used sex just to feel needed
Hebrews 13:4
Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous.
There is a right way and wrong way to use sex. I used sex wrong! i used it to cover up pain. There is this look that man gives you when he wants your body and when your in that sexual moment everything is about you. And i loved that moment it gave me a high because he wanted me. And i wanted to feel wanted even if it was for one night. He wanted me he made me feel good for a moment. I just needed that moment until the next moment. I hurt inside yeah but that look it made it feel better for the moment . cuz he wanted me someone actually wanted me. Well just for sexSo I'm over it I feel good inside and I don't need sex to feel needed anymore
John 8:11
11 “No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”
Last week someone questioned me because i told them once about my past lifestyle. They thought that just cuz i was once that way in the past that im that way now. Those feelings i have on the things i use to do are not the same i feel guilt and shame instead of nothingness when i commit a sin. I didnt love God then. I was empty wanting love from a man. I left my lifestyle of sleeping around prostituting along time ago. I want something real. I want love. Who really wants to wonder around sinning all the time. Having sex with tons of men. Feeling dirty and low. I dont thats not who i am.
Fighting your flesh
1 Corinthians 6:18
18 Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.
Its hard im not going to lie. But its mind over matter. Its like fasting i did the Daniel fast once no meat cheese butter sugar. Just fruits and veggies and man you can smell meat you crave it but you do what you have to do. Just like on a diet. Just Know that what your doing is well worth it. God knows what hes talking about . so fight your flesh stay focus and flee from sex.
Tempted to have sex?
1 Corinthians 7:2
But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband
temptation
a desire to do something, especially something wrong or unwise.
Temptation can be hard not to give in. It seems like when your trying control yourself from something that what your trying to give up is presented in front of you. Lately ive been giving up meat and everytime i look around someones giving me meat. Its like i know i can't have it but there it is tempting me to want it. Its like when your giving up sex it seems the girl or guy is coming at you trying to be with you. So you may fall or stumble
I used sex just to feel needed
Hebrews 13:4
Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous.
There is a right way and wrong way to use sex. I used sex wrong! i used it to cover up pain. There is this look that man gives you when he wants your body and when your in that sexual moment everything is about you. And i loved that moment it gave me a high because he wanted me. And i wanted to feel wanted even if it was for one night. He wanted me he made me feel good for a moment. I just needed that moment until the next moment. I hurt inside yeah but that look it made it feel better for the moment . cuz he wanted me someone actually wanted me. Well just for sexSo I'm over it I feel good inside and I don't need sex to feel needed anymore
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