Life After Prostitution

I dont want to be a Baby Momma, Sideline Hoe, One Night Stand, fwb But I want to be a Wife! Proverbs 31:10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. Baby Mama an unmarried young woman (but can be a woman of any age) who has had a child. Sideline Hoe Being a mistress, or just a girlfriend on the side. One-night stand a sexual relationship lasting only one night. FWB "friends with benefits" casual relationship implying no committment, but involving companionship Its been easier to not give my body away to guys for the fact that I want to get married then have children. I want to be a wife not a baby momma! My parents were not married when they had me and they kept having children after me with other people so when I explain my family tree well everyone either has a different mother or father or something. I dont want that for my children. I want to be married in a union that last forever. If I don't know forsure that someone is going to love...

Broken Down Walls!  bro·ken 1. having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order. Joshua 6:15-20And it came to pass on the seventh day, that they rose early about the dawning of the day, and compassed the city after the same manner seven times: only on that day they compassed the city seven times.16 And it came to pass at the seventh time, when the priests blew wit h the trumpets, Joshua said unto the people, Shout; for the Lord hath given you the city.17 And the city shall be accursed, even it, and all that are therein, to the Lord: only Rahab the harlot shall live, she and all that are with her in the house, because she hid the messengers that we sent.18 And ye, in any wise keep yourselves from the accursed thing, lest ye make yourselves accursed, when ye take of the accursed thing, and make the camp of Israel a curse, and trouble it.19 But all the silver, and gold, and vessels of brass and iron, are consecrated unto the Lord: they shall come into...

         God created Sex to beautiful!!! beau·ti·ful adj. 1. Having qualities that delight the senses, especially the sense of sight. 2. Excellent; wonderful. Genesis 4:1 And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain, and said, I have gotten a man from the Lord. I never really thought to describe sex as something beautiful! Growing up in the church it was never explained like that. I was always told don't have sex! They talked about the sin of sex! That was that! Then it was never really talked much about at home ! I was told no Yet never told exactly why! Im not the type of person who if you tell me don't do something and then don't tell me why then chances are i will end up doing it! Especially if your telling me not to do it and then your doing it...Ohhkay.....Sooo ......Its bad so why is it okay for you? I need an explanation to understand! Not just one side explanation either i need the pros and cons ect! I need understanding! So Now...

Can't turn a "Hoe" into a "House Wife"!  Hosea 3:1-3 Then said the Lord unto me, Go yet, love a woman beloved of her friend, yet an adulteress, according to the love of the Lord toward the children of Israel, who look to other gods, and l ove flagons of wine. 2 So I bought her to me for fifteen pieces of silver, and for an homer of barley, and an half homer of barley: 3 And I said unto her, Thou shalt abide for me many days; thou shalt not play the harlot, and thou shalt not be for another man: so will I also be for thee. Lets just be real for a minute this saying is horrible.Everyone's heard it at least once in their life. For a long time I believed it was true! Yet anyone can change their life and start living a new life! A woman who they call a hoe can be made over to a wonderful house wife type of woman. Hosea's wife was prostitute and God told him to go love this woman again. She was to be for him and him for her. God can make over any woman. I...

Trust!  firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. Joshua 2:18 Behold, when we come into the land, thou shalt bind this line of scarlet thread in the window which thou didst let us down by: and thou shalt bring thy father, and thy mother, and thy brethren, and all thy father's household, home unto thee. So we been talking about receiving love and how  to receive love you must be vulnerable not only that but you must learn to trust. Rahab wanted to receive Gods love. Yet when the men left her they could have not returned they could have not came back for her but she had to learn to trust that they were going to come back for her. Alot of men probably came back for her day in and day out but for one thing Sex! Yet she had to trust that they would come back to rescue her! Rescue her out of her lifestyle, from behind her wall she lived behind! It takes a lot to trust and faith to believe that love will do the right things by you. I remembe...

A Guarded Heart  guarded cautious and having possible reservations. Joshua 2:1 And Joshua the son of Nun sent out of Shittim two men to spy secretly, saying, Go view the land, even Jericho. And they went, and came into an harlot's house, named Rahab, and lodged there. My prostitution never was because It was fun. Yet It was easier to just have sex with men then to actually let someone love me.  Faithfulness was far from my middle name I cheated on men like it was my job. Well it actually was like a job. But lets be serious I am still human and deep underneath my tough girl act I use to put on I just wanted someone to love me but I was guarded! I've been guarded for so long. So being so guarded it was just easier to sleep with men then to actually let someone in. Easier to allow them to walk in and out of my life alot of the times I caught feelings I always had a main boyfriend. Yet then i'd cheat. Then when I was 16 the prostitution started thats how I became the ha...

                  You can't try to love  What you hate! hate hāt/ verb 1 . feel intense or passionate dislike for (someone). 1 John 3:15  Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him I wish this was easy to even talk about! I mean a year ago God told me you never know unless you try. I mean I hated men. So call me a murderer for hating my brother. I have to repent. He said Jaz someone loves you and i laughed inside only you love me Lord. To me men just want sex. I don't care if you were a good man to me it didnt matter! I didnt care if you never tried to sleep with me. I still saw thru your facade. I know HATE is such a strong word yet knowing that look where you are just a piece of meat. Oh i know it well. Being a teen prostitute oh you know those guys, that stare, those thoughts they think. That it is just lust. Then whe...