Life After Prostitution

Can't turn a "Hoe" into a "House Wife"!  Hosea 3:1-3 Then said the Lord unto me, Go yet, love a woman beloved of her friend, yet an adulteress, according to the love of the Lord toward the children of Israel, who look to other gods, and l ove flagons of wine. 2 So I bought her to me for fifteen pieces of silver, and for an homer of barley, and an half homer of barley: 3 And I said unto her, Thou shalt abide for me many days; thou shalt not play the harlot, and thou shalt not be for another man: so will I also be for thee. Lets just be real for a minute this saying is horrible.Everyone's heard it at least once in their life. For a long time I believed it was true! Yet anyone can change their life and start living a new life! A woman who they call a hoe can be made over to a wonderful house wife type of woman. Hosea's wife was prostitute and God told him to go love this woman again. She was to be for him and him for her. God can make over any woman. I...

Trust!  firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. Joshua 2:18 Behold, when we come into the land, thou shalt bind this line of scarlet thread in the window which thou didst let us down by: and thou shalt bring thy father, and thy mother, and thy brethren, and all thy father's household, home unto thee. So we been talking about receiving love and how  to receive love you must be vulnerable not only that but you must learn to trust. Rahab wanted to receive Gods love. Yet when the men left her they could have not returned they could have not came back for her but she had to learn to trust that they were going to come back for her. Alot of men probably came back for her day in and day out but for one thing Sex! Yet she had to trust that they would come back to rescue her! Rescue her out of her lifestyle, from behind her wall she lived behind! It takes a lot to trust and faith to believe that love will do the right things by you. I remembe...

A Guarded Heart  guarded cautious and having possible reservations. Joshua 2:1 And Joshua the son of Nun sent out of Shittim two men to spy secretly, saying, Go view the land, even Jericho. And they went, and came into an harlot's house, named Rahab, and lodged there. My prostitution never was because It was fun. Yet It was easier to just have sex with men then to actually let someone love me.  Faithfulness was far from my middle name I cheated on men like it was my job. Well it actually was like a job. But lets be serious I am still human and deep underneath my tough girl act I use to put on I just wanted someone to love me but I was guarded! I've been guarded for so long. So being so guarded it was just easier to sleep with men then to actually let someone in. Easier to allow them to walk in and out of my life alot of the times I caught feelings I always had a main boyfriend. Yet then i'd cheat. Then when I was 16 the prostitution started thats how I became the ha...

                  You can't try to love  What you hate! hate hāt/ verb 1 . feel intense or passionate dislike for (someone). 1 John 3:15  Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him I wish this was easy to even talk about! I mean a year ago God told me you never know unless you try. I mean I hated men. So call me a murderer for hating my brother. I have to repent. He said Jaz someone loves you and i laughed inside only you love me Lord. To me men just want sex. I don't care if you were a good man to me it didnt matter! I didnt care if you never tried to sleep with me. I still saw thru your facade. I know HATE is such a strong word yet knowing that look where you are just a piece of meat. Oh i know it well. Being a teen prostitute oh you know those guys, that stare, those thoughts they think. That it is just lust. Then whe...

I thought This Day Would Never Come Joshua 2:1   And Joshua the son of Nun sent out of Shittim two men to spy secretly, saying, Go view the land, even Jericho. And they went, and came into an harlot's house, named Rahab, and lodged there.   Do you ever think that Rahab thought to herself that morning. Today is the day my life is going to change. Something is going to get me out of this life of prostitution. Someone is going to come and rescue me from this life style. Day in and day out she slept with men constantly giving her body away. Until the day came where two spies came into her house who would change her life forever!   Hosea 1:2-3 2  The beginning of the word of the Lord by Hosea. And the Lord said to Hosea, Go, take unto thee a wife of whoredoms and children of whoredoms: for the land hath committed great whoredom, departing from the Lord . 3  So he went and took Gomer the daughter of Diblaim; which conceived, and bare him a s...

                                       He Made My Heart Perfect! Psalm 101:2-4 2  I will behave myself wisely in a perfect way. O when wilt thou come unto me? I will walk within my house with a perfect heart. 3  I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. 4  A froward heart shall depart from me: I will not know a wicked person. Perfect  Verb Make (something) completely free from faults or defects, or as close to such a condition as possible. We cant really see our heart or know if somethings wrong with it because it is inner in December I went the hospital because I could feel my heart because It was causing me pain. I did't realize that I had a hardened heart condition. The doctors found nothing but I believe God was trying to show me the condition of my heart. I coul...

                                                          Why did he love her?  af·fec·tion  tender attachment  I can only imagine what it's like trying to love me. Hard! My little cousin keeps hugging me and it's strange to me. Even though I'm healed its strange to have someone come up to you and just not want to let go. Even though it's something people should do to me i wonder why is this little boy hugging me. It's not like its once a day but just to come in my room and hug me and leave. Only to come back and hug me and leave. Yet it's what people do to show affection. Which means tender attachment! Leaves me wonder why anyone would really grow an attachment to me especially a tender one. What does he see that I don't see in myself. That he loves me! Yet why does he love me or even have this attac...